Well, I decided on the one to close - Best Places - it just didn't feel right the way things were happening, I certainly wouldn't have run a project that way, so I removed myself, and feel very good about it. I did a lot of soul searching about it, leaving them "in the lurch" but then I thought about how it had all transpired and how I had been feeling around it, I knew it was the right thing to do. The work I produced would not be good as I wouldn't have my heart in it. And the whole thing was really stressing me out - a place I don't want to be! So I will round up my notes and contacts and send them off, and be done with it.
So the latest comments about novel writing "were go for it!" Not having a clue how to get started as I have never really considered writing fiction, I discovered all sorts of web sites and software that could help me - help me by at least giving me the format and flow that is required. I still have to write it! and imagine it! and first of all, come up with the basic premise behind the story. I bought a well-reviewed software called New Novelist and have been playing around with it a bit and it looks like it will be very helpful.
This means I will be writing for myself and won't have to be concerned with editors and others - at least until I have a book proposal and some of it written. But no deadlines and just time to do it.
My health is picking up I think. I am down to 1o mg Prednisone since Monday and had no adverse reactions. The doc said I can start a moderate exercise program, so went for a short walk yesterday and was going to go again this morning but it was pouring. I find it difficult to talk and walk - have no breath and end up almost gasping for air. I expect that will improve once I get a little fitter!
There are other things happening out there that I want to persue - but until I have more info I won't post anything - but is around the notion of "thoughts are things" and "be careful what you wish for it might come true."
So stay tuned!